Clinical depression. noun;
a depression so severe as to be considered abnormal, either becauseof no obvious environmental causes, or because the reaction to unfortunate life circumstances is more intense or prolonged than would generally be expected
At this stage in the game I am using the term “battling clinical depression.” This means I have realized its an illness and I’m trying to cope. It’s so crazy one day for 22 hours will be all smiles and the last 2 are hell. I’ve always said what the hell is wrong with me? Finally, I get it to not question it and just learn to deal.
After turning 21 I told myself I would treat myself to a therapist. That was my way of justifying I needed to see one. I’ve been in need of one all my life. After the first session I was immediately prescribed prozac. After about a year I went into “I don’t need medicine” mode and I totally went cold turkey. After about 6 months of being in hell I finally broke down and was like “I need this shit.” This led to another depressive episode where I felt “I can’t fix myself” and feelings of incapability as a person, that I need a pill to sustain me.
Depression is a chemical imbalance. it is literally not enough serotonin activity in your brain or serotonin being received and it influences mood. It is still not known weather low levels of serotonin cause depression or depression causes the levels of serotonin to drop (like which came first the chicken or the egg scenario). But there are ways to help coping with the imbalance.
Just like people with illnesses such as diabetes, allergies, asthma you take medicine to help the effects. So why is there such a stigma with mental health? We as society are still figuring it out but until then I will be part of the prozac nation and be so grateful. I say all that to say this it is okay to be depressed, sometimes people don’t understand and thats okay just give yourself a chance to find peace and take safe routes to get there.
National hotline 1-800-273-TALK (8255)